"It's well past midnight and I'm unable to sleep", not an extraordinary thing to say isn't it....
But today, I don't know if it's normal or not. Night out's are kind of fashion in KGP so I couldn't first tell the difference, that how today is any different than what I used to have two years back. But after giving little thought I came to conclusion it indeed is different. Let me clarify what I really mean to say...
Those were the days when we used to wake up whole night because the hope and promise of our future assured us of achieving great heights in our lives. We were in a way intoxicated with the dreams which seems quite dismal now. Damn it...I wanted to be a politician but before that I wanted to be a successful innovator in whatever I was doing, I wanted to transform lives and I wanted to become a person who will be remembered by generations to come. Well some might say if you don't feel the same after two years than your resolve was not strong enough....well in all my honesty they are correct....
But when I look back at these two-three years a lot has changed. We were told you are the best, but when it came to giving us opportunities to prove they gave us none...hell...they didn't even encouraged when we were doing something worthwhile without their support. They never gave us a realistic picture and we were and still are supposed to find on our own....nothing's wrong with it but tell us at least where to start. Instead when we didn't fared to their expectations they told most of you are factory products...you guys are dumb...as if we are donkeys. I must say we weren't that dumb as they pronounced, but we are one now. All we care about is a average salary job. Most of my thoughts are concentrated on more or less how can I get out from here without being stripped of a chance towards little happiness. To show a degree to my parents and a package in my hand and who knows what will be in that package. Yes and one thing I am hundred percent certain of that package won't include a girl, that will not include most thrilling experience a teenager transforming into a man can have...once in a lifetime experience.
So here I am a truly from heart and just not from my mind a frustrated kgpian blabbing about things nobody will even care...this is frustrated kgpian in it's entirety....
But today, I don't know if it's normal or not. Night out's are kind of fashion in KGP so I couldn't first tell the difference, that how today is any different than what I used to have two years back. But after giving little thought I came to conclusion it indeed is different. Let me clarify what I really mean to say...
Those were the days when we used to wake up whole night because the hope and promise of our future assured us of achieving great heights in our lives. We were in a way intoxicated with the dreams which seems quite dismal now. Damn it...I wanted to be a politician but before that I wanted to be a successful innovator in whatever I was doing, I wanted to transform lives and I wanted to become a person who will be remembered by generations to come. Well some might say if you don't feel the same after two years than your resolve was not strong enough....well in all my honesty they are correct....
But when I look back at these two-three years a lot has changed. We were told you are the best, but when it came to giving us opportunities to prove they gave us none...hell...they didn't even encouraged when we were doing something worthwhile without their support. They never gave us a realistic picture and we were and still are supposed to find on our own....nothing's wrong with it but tell us at least where to start. Instead when we didn't fared to their expectations they told most of you are factory products...you guys are dumb...as if we are donkeys. I must say we weren't that dumb as they pronounced, but we are one now. All we care about is a average salary job. Most of my thoughts are concentrated on more or less how can I get out from here without being stripped of a chance towards little happiness. To show a degree to my parents and a package in my hand and who knows what will be in that package. Yes and one thing I am hundred percent certain of that package won't include a girl, that will not include most thrilling experience a teenager transforming into a man can have...once in a lifetime experience.
So here I am a truly from heart and just not from my mind a frustrated kgpian blabbing about things nobody will even care...this is frustrated kgpian in it's entirety....
